fernando pessoa

Fernando pessoa - picture from  : praler.org

أنطونيو فرناندو نوغيرا دي سيابرا بيسوا (13 يونيو 1888–30 نوفمبر 1935) هو شاعر، وكاتب وناقد أدبي، ومترجم وفيلسوف برتغالي، ويوصف بأنه واحد من أهم الشخصيات الأدبية في القرن العشرين، وواحد من أعظم شعراء اللغة البرتغالية، كما أنه كتب وترجم من اللغة الإنجليزية والفرنسية.

 أمضى حياته موظفاً في شركة للشحن البحري في لشبونة اثر طفولة وصباً قضاهما في أفريقيا الجنوبية حيث درس الانكليزية. 

 يعتبر شعره عصياً على التصنيف وإن كان يمت الى السوريالية البدئية بأكثر من صلة، بل تنبع من شخصيته نفسها، هذه الشخصية الغريبة المدهشة التي بدت دائماً وكأنها في حال بحث عن الذات. في حال مطاردة لهوية، حقيقية أو مفترضة... وكأن الشاعر كان لا يتوقف عن التساؤل بينه وبين نفسه، وفي شعره خصوصاً: من أنا؟ من تراني أكون. ولعل من الصعب جداً تصور أن بيسوا عرف كيف يجيب عن هذا السؤال في شعره أو في حياته. 

كتب مؤلفاته بإسمه   بالإضافة الى  العديد  من الأسماء الأخرى  ، كان  يعيش  تحت كل  اسم حالة معينة  يكتب  عنها  و سمى اسمائه  "  heteronames "  حيث كان أولها  في  عمر السادسه  "   فارس  السلام  "  تلاه العديد  من الاسماء  الاخرى التي  و صلت الى 73  اسما .

لم يعد الشاعر البرتغالي فرناندو بيسوا غريباً عن القارئ العربي، إذ عديدة هي الترجمات التي نجدها اليوم، لهذا الشاعر الذي وسم وحده، تاريخ الشعر البرتغالي، في النصف الأول من القرن العشرين، أكان ذلك عبر اسمه الفردي أم عبر أحد أسمائه البديلة. 

أترككم مع بعض  مقتطفات  شعره  : 

I have no ambitions nor desires. To be a poet is not my ambition, It's simply my way of being alone.

Alberto Caeiro, "The Keeper of Herds"

آه! لو يمكنني أن أكونك، وأبقى أنا نفسي! 
لو أملك لا وعيك السعيد 
ووعي ذلك! أيتها الأغنية! 
أيتها الحقول! أيتها السماء! العِلمُ 

I am nothing. I will never be anything. I cannot wish to be anything. Bar that, I have in me all the dreams of the world.

Álvaro de Campos, "The Tobacco Shop"

أحيانا أنا الإله الذي أحمله داخلي 
حينذاك أكون الإله والمؤمن والصلاة 
والصورة العاجية 
حيث ننسى هذا الإله. 

أحيانا لا أزيد أكثر عن ملحد 
بهذا الإله الشخصي الذي أكونه في نشوتي. 
أتأمل في داخلي سماء بأسرها 
وهي ليس سوى سماء عالية وفارغة.

The poet is a faker Who's so good at his act He even fakes the pain Of pain he feels in fact.

Fernando Pessoa-himself, "Autopsychography"

Go away !

Why is't Hard sometime to get rid of someone ?
some people just  stuck  in your life and no matter  what you did  they still there , maybe because  you have a multi-direction network with them!
sometimes  it is  also because a  part of us  want that one to be there , even if the negative in  his  presence is  more  than the  positive he would bring ,  we  just feel we need  them in our life, we can survive without them for sure ,but  we want them to be in , and we want them to be out !
 as  this  man in the picture told me :  just take your photo and Go  away ! 

Sudan : The Standardized Beauty

Image: Duke Media.

As everywhere around the globe these days , there is a standardizing  for beauty , we have an image that everyone wants to look like, and it's the same  in Sudan.

Talking with many females during my stay there and being a  part of a wedding preparation made me understand a little bit about the beauty standards in a city like Khartoum, a  pretty girl is a light skin girl , which means in a city in the middle of the African continent with hot climate  adding to this  of course the African genes that has much melanin in it ,  girls has to do much work to keep their skin light ! so starting by using natural masks , covering the face and the hands , arriving to using chemical products based on cortisone that  has as  secondary effect the "de-pigmentation" which means taking the normal color from the skin !

but it's not just the skin , it  goes to the eyebrows , the hair, the  nails , even the color of the skin on the articulations like knee and elbow which are anatomically speaking  darker in all races !

you walk in the street , you see girls  looks like each other , the identity is gone because we are trying to reach a " perfect"  image made by  society  or media , you open the Sudanese TV, all  female presenters are looking alike , all from the same "type " of beauty !

I see that black skin has a unique charm , makes the eyes more expressive , more pure and more resistant to skin diseases as well !


Dark skin beauty was also  not accepted in several  countries around the world especially in American , in Europe as well and now it's moving to Arabic countries with mixed Arabic African genes  though  we don't have their problems , environment  or  culture !
i recommend watching the  documentary " Dark Girls " : http://officialdarkgirlsmovie.com/

maybe we want to start  fighting this before it gets serious  and be as we were created , different and beautiful !

Sudan & Mango

My  trip to Sudan deserves lots of articles in this  blog , but lets start  by the  thing i miss the most , MANGO !

yesterday  i bought one mango for 2 euro  from  a  fruit market in porto - portugal ,  the smell was very nice , but  once i  opened it :(  , it was nothing like the  mango in sudan ,  well  there is  lots  of  types and shapes and names for mango over there,  57 varieties of mango  in one country , can you believe that !!  Mango is one of the most cherished fruits, not only in flavor and taste, but also for its nutritional value  mango is a good source of vitamin A and C and rich in carbohydrates, minerals potassium, and phosphorus. Mango is mostly consumed as fresh fruit but due to its perishable nature it can not be store for long time . 

when i goggled Mango +  sudan , i found out i'am not the  only one who fell in love with this great creation ! , and i loved  what Marry  the owner  of the blog  ( http://this-is-sudan.blogspot.pt/)  said  about  mango  : ( I'm convinced that it was a mango that Adam and Eve were forbidden to eat in the Garden of Eden) 

it's really that wonderful !

so if  you are passing by sudan , don't forget ,  MANGO  comes first ! it's  one of the most delicious things that you can taste  in your life !

ُEGYPT : pretty girls .. ugly women

The title may be shocking for some of you  . but  this is  what i noticed in  Egypt , i went there for few days in alexendria and cairo , but  as i love to watch peoples' faces  i couldn't help to notice they have really pretty  girls , smiley , full of energy, bright eyes , singing voice , very positive energy ! but  when you look to  elder  women  ( not  so old )   just above 35 ,you look at tired , exhausted eyes  , falling shoulders , fat bodies , busy minds and dark look , the look in their eyes inspires sadness , worry, fear ..  or  a mixture of all of that .. may be  it's the  fear of future , not know  what it holds  for them  .. maybe it is the responsibility and the idea  that when a woman get married  she forget  everything that is related to her self and dreams and ambitions ,and dedicate her self to her  husband and children ..

 i don't know , but it's really sad to see this ! 

Ramdan in marrakech

Tea & Milk always there in Iftar time -  Fatin Nabil Photography

Ramdan is a very special month , it has a spiritual customs ,  family get together , people control their bodies and  souls and tend to do more good things in it !

one of the most important  experiences to  make in ramadan in Marrakesh is to take your Iftar ( breakfast meal ) in Jamaa ALfna square , it's a  very  big square with lots of  long tables for  food , all kind of food , and people  who sell orange juce , sweets , cloths , people who dance with monkeys , snacks , witches , fire players , musicians , dancers , even people who sell teeth !!  yes  human teeth !

anyway the teeth is not our issue now ,  the important thing is to taste the Harira soup ,  it  cost 30 cent and it's the most delicious soup you will ever taste !
then you have to taste the shbakia  which is sweet that is  very  yummy ,  green tea and mesmen which is kind of crepe.  usually  you have to  eat in a  long table with lots of people around you like in a family house  , and when the  time come you hear the call for the prayer coming from all directions , all the voices get mixed together in a wonderful symphony then a non planed moments of  silence come , people starts to  eat and the atmosphere is very calm and positive , then everyone go for the prayer of  almughreb !
i like when everyone go to pray, all go in the same direction to answer the call of God , it's a very wonderful view to see .

Mint Green Tea - you have to mention if u dont want suger

Harira  soup 

Shbakia sweet 

afterword you may go to have a tour in the square that is as all the year long full of  light and handmade products , as well as the traditional market and the music !
Ramdan Iftar in Marrakech is a must to do experience at least once in a lifetime !

light and handmade products 

The Chinese Girl

me and QiaoQiao

“Each friend represents a world in us, a world possibly not born until they arrive, and it is only by this meeting that a new world is born.” 
#Anaïs Nin

i think the  most interesting activity in the world is meeting new people, knowing new personalities ,  new culture, new  horizon , etc.. if i started to  write about each person  i met in my life that would be almsot impossible because i met an enormous number of  humans ! each of them affected my life with away or another, but i will try to write about the ones i met from now on , just  few of them , some of them i also want to keep them out of internet screens !

i want to write about my wonderful Friend Qiaoqiao and this  is  pronounced ''Tchaotchao'' and the following question would  be  why it's written with Q, and thats because in China the Qi = Tchi sound.
qiaoqiao  is  from China , came all the way to europe to  study , met the love of her life and came to portugal 6 years ago , then decided she want to apply for a Chinese medicine program in the Faculty of biomedical sciences in the  same year where i  was working in a small village in morocco Called Benguerir that is almost in-existent on the map when i got an email  saying that i was accepted in the same program with a scholarship from the European union ! how  often is this happening to  people ?  i  have no idea but i guess , not a lot !

She is one very  unique person , kind , careful , very sensitive to  people's needs,  calm , funny , with a very wide range of  interests , she  tried many things in life which gave her good  experience ! she is a good listener and you never  get bored when you are with her.
with her i learned much  about China , the country the  costumes , the food , and i became almost professional in eating with the chopsticks. she  helped me a lot  through living in Portugal , show me where to go , from where to  buy good  things,.. etc, also  i had to over come my hate to pets because she has two cats Branco which is my favorite and Max ( i think i have to  take some portraits for them ) , she has a  lovely innocent face that  gives you a feeling of  security  and that you are safe , when i get sick she worry about me like a mother , she is very  careful  person , and i just can't describe her as she deserves ! but i'am sure that  eve if  our  roads got  far from each other as we walk in this life , i  will never  forget  i met her !

dear friend , meeting you  was a new birth  for a new world to me , so  thanks as  much as i can !
i hope for all of you to meet  such a  person once in your life !